Nipt test t21 scheduling d&e

I don’t even know where to start. I have never even been on Reddit but I found this through googling other information on my most recent results. My heart and mind feel so overwhelmed and lost but I feel like this is the only page that is a no judgment so hear I am hoping I can find answers or to just vent

I am 31 and pregnant with my 3rd child. I was very excited for this pregnancy when I found out. I recently did a NIPT test and didn’t receive much information on it other than it test for genetic abnormality and you can find out the gender soon. There was not even a slight concern that my child would have a genetic abnormality. I was honestly anxious to find out the gender and start picking names. It took about 2 weeks for me to get the results and I had to call my OB because I was unable to access them on the portal. The nurse didn’t say much other than she will be emailing them to me. I opened my results and saw it said I was high risk 95/100 for T21. Called my OB back to confirm I was reading the results right and it was correct all that was said was they were putting in a referral and I was going to a see a specialist and that was it. I felt lost and began googling only to ball myself into tears not understanding anything and not truly looking into this test and T21. I’ve been up googling and reading other peoples stories and now I am stuck on making a decision to terminate or proceed with more testing to confirm. I scheduled an appointment to do a D&E but I am stuck on if I should even do the ultrasound or CVS because of how many people have received another positive result. I’m lost and hurt and feel so guilty I’m scared that this will stay with me forever and I will never be able to heal from all the guilt of terminating. I am also choosing not to tell any family or friends other than I lost the baby. I’m scared that people with judge me for making this decision and I can’t stop thinking about everything more so because this just happened less than 24 hours ago. Please if anyone has any way to help me get through this or guidance I would really appreciate it.

I was unable to add this in the beginning but I am 12 weeks and the fetal fractions were 7.5%