I am inexplicably attracted to my new wife and its driving me insane.
I just made this account, because this is embarrassing af. So I(29m) recently got married to my wife(30f) under an arranged setup. U can probably guess that I am from India. I met her around 8 months ago through our parents and we hit it off. Now a little background of what my problem is. I had one serious gf before this. We were sexually active and the relationship ended around 2 years ago. It was becoming bad and I wasn't particularly bummed about the break-up. But its failure is why I agreed to an arranged marriage. My wife also has a similar situation. I only said this, because we both aren't virgins going into the courtship and were aware of it. In the past 5 months we have kind of quasi-dated I suppose. Like mostly just going out and talking. We have not had an intimate relationship before the marriage. Obviously I find her extremely attractive and she is in every sense of the word conventionally attractive. Now here's my problem. We have been married for a month and half now. On the wedding night we discussed about physical relationships and stuff. My wish always was to be married to my best friend, and she agreed with me. So we kind of decided on holding off on actual sex, and get to know each other really well, before getting physical. Nothing against casual sex, it's just ain't for me. Ever since we got married I have obviously been noticing her more and seeing her more closely (we literally sleep in the same bed) and I am just so freakin thirsty lol. Like I never thought of myself as a sexual person. I am fit and I have a decent sex drive but I generally don't have that many sexual thoughts about people. This was the case in my previous relationship. I have always found women of all shapes and forms attractive and never really thought I had a type. That is until I met my wife. My wife is physically everything I find attractive. Like not just attractive but batshit attractive. Idk there's like something about her face and body that just oozes off a lot of sex appeal. I have only known her for like 8 months, and I am not exactly fully in love with her. I like her a lot and hopefully will be in love with her soon. But my lust is just way too overpowering that it's concerning me. I constantly have sexual thoughts about her, and it just keeps getting more intense. I mean I no longer find porn or any other form of explicit content arousing Reason I decided to make this post is that yesterday I saw her drink a kombucha from a glass bottle and I instantly had an erection that I had to go and take care of it😫. I am worried that I am sexualising her more than what I should be. Ik that it's great to find your partner attractive but something about all of this feels wrong. I feel like 14 and just discovered naked women on internet. All of this makes me a little nervous about how sex would go when it will happen. Ik my wife would be happy to take this to next level, and we do have a lot of non-sexual intimacy. So guys any advice would be very helpful.