What are some good resources for building intuitive understanding of how R works?

I have been avoiding learning R for a long time but I have come to a point where I will either learn it or make a ton of graphs manually and I am too lazy not to learn a new language. The main reason I avoided it is because all the tutorials I have seen so far aim to teach data science using R and end up being step by step guides that get you to analyze your data otherwise don't teach much about R itself. I need to build an intuitive understanding of how something works before using it because otherwise I get stuck thinking about the smallest details while trying to figure out how to put my code together and get frustrated when it doesn't work as intended.

So, what are some good resources (preferably video tutorials) that teach how to use R itself and not just manipulate some data. I want to know what R sees when I create an object and how it treats it while doing its job rather than the specific set of commands I need to use to get the results I want.