Do you ever think about the passage of time and it physically hurts

watched Brokeback Mountain on the plane and it was so crazy seeing Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal so young. Ledger had so much potential with his career it’s just heartbreaking knowing how things ended. 20 years came and went since, I began thinking about my own life. In 2005 I was 9 years old and moved across the country with my family. I began thinking about certain family members who were still here on earth, others who were still so much younger and still full of life then. It all began to hurt so much. I don’t think anything turned out the way I thought it would have back then, especially with world events such as covid that altered the trajectory of my life. It’s crazy the feeling of physical pain that can be caused by knowing about that certain time and place knowing you can never go there again, that it doesn’t exist anymore.