I’ve hated being a PA

Idk y’all I’ve hated being a PA the last 4 years. I tried different specialties, 8 hour vs 12 hour shifts, surgery, clinic based, hospital based etc. I totally hate it. I hate conventional medicine and how much of a scam it is. Patients constantly sick and in pain and sometimes how little we can do about it I feel like all I do is send in more steroids and pain meds all the time. I hardly ever have the answers for why patients have this pain or that pain and I’m just a robot saying the same things over and over again. I hate talking to patients about the same problems over and over and all I do is send in a steroid or pain meds. It feels like all I do is trained monkey work.

Conventional Medicine just seems like such a scam and is completely driven by money. Every job I’ve had they push seeing more patients, longer hours, and they get rid of your ancillary support bc of “budget cuts”. No one ever cares to look for the root cause of symptoms it’s just sending in more medications to mask things. I’m so over it.

I found a 100% remote job outside of medicine that I accepted and I’m happy I’m leaving a field I hate. But at the same time I feel like I wasted 6 years of my life on something I previously had thought I wanted so badly.

Does anyone feel the same? Or am I just a loser for not knowing myself well enough and hence deciding to go to PA school