Might have a child with a sex worker

So I had a horrible situation happen to me. Back in August of 2019 I was going through a pretty bad break up. (I was 23 at the time and had just graduated college)

Looking for a hook up I got on tinder. Couldn't get any matches. But I came across a profile of a girl that stated she was looking for a sugar daddy. We matched and she was selling pictures and was looking for $135 per session to have sex. I was desperate so I sent her money for pictures and paid her for sex twice. I was really dumb and didn't use protection. She told me both times to cum inside her. I stated I didn't want to but she then said "it doesn't matter. I'm on the birth control" so I did (really dumb)

17 days later she texted me saying she had really bad news. I stated freaking out stating "are you pregnant"???? She then stated this is why I wasn't going to tell you and she would handle this herself. Well I convinced her to get dinner that night to talk about it.

We had dinner and she said she just wanted me to pay for an abortion. I was relieved not wanting to have a child with what is basically a prostitute. However she told me that her parents were religious and didn't believe in that. She was also asking me all sorts of questions like what I do for a living, etc. I offered to go with her to get the abortion but she stated no she definitely did not want that.

She then requested the money for the abortion via cash app. I paid her and then I was immediately unmatched on tinder and my number was blocked.

A week later I got a text from her stating "I didn't have the money. Looks like I'm keeping the baby". I started freaking out and asked how much more she needed. I sent her more money. I stated to think I was scammed and she said she would send me the paperwork. She sent me the ultrasound and some medical paperwork then blocked me.

The ultrasound freaked me out. I thought this was off. So over the next could of months I stared finding her social media with burner accounts and two months later I saw she posted that she was going to have a baby in 6 months which would have been may. Which would have been around 9 months after our August encounters.

I then started going crazy. I was still blocked. I downloaded text now and called her stating you told me you had an abortion. She hung up. I texted her I was going to kill myself and I would pay any amount for an abortion. I was so worried about telling my parents.

She then texted me back saying "don't kill yourself. I will have the abortion. Just send me more money". I forgot this amount but I believe I offered like $1500. I sent her some money but my bank kept declining it. I finally told my parents.

I texted her that my payments were being declined and I had to tell me my parents. She texted back "why??? Tell no one to contact me". I texted back we need to know what's going on. Because it was obvious to me that she was not actually getting an abortion. She gave me a deadline of that night to send her the rest of the money.

I got with a family friend that night that my mom recommended. We were in the car and texting her. I texted her that I was not sending anymore more money until there is a paternity test. She then texted me " I already did all that. It's your child." I responded that this is basically extortion. And she said "I'm keeping HER!" And "child support coming your way". I then said we're going to have to get the authorities involved or something along those lines for extortion and she said this was harassment then said "this is now her mom. This is the last time you will ever hear from her".

Months go by and I don't hear from her. My brother saw her on a dating app where she was still selling pictures pregnant. She stated the father "wasn't ready for a baby".

Then on may 2nd 2020 (which is around 9 months from August) she posted on social media a picture of the child and stated it was born on that day. There 100% is a child.

My family and friends encouraged me to not ever get on social media to look for her.

I waited around 4 months after the child was born and changed my phone number then deleted my Snapchat about 16 months later.

Around 5 years later I have still not heard anything. No paternity suit, no anything.

But I think about this all of the time and how this has basically destroyed my life the last 5 years. I can't date anyone because how could I tell them this may be out there?

I realize I did some horrible things and am a horrible person

What do I do?