I am pathetic

I am sooooo fucking pathetic. I literally cannot believe that my parents wasted time an energy just to spew out a waste of fucking walking human flesh like me. I have depression, I gave no friends, and I have no hope. What is my value to anyone or even myself? Nothing. I don't understand why I should keep on going feeling this pain for absolutely nothing in return. No one gives a single shit about me and honestly I understand because I don't understand why anyone would. Fuck me and my existence.