How do you begin your life when you seem to be living in fears ?
Sighs my only 3 goals that I want to badly achieve for last idk years of avoiding maybe it's 6 years now. Is learning to drive so I can be independent on my own. Getting a job and finishing college. It is not like I was not doing anything but idk what made me stop working towards my goals.
So for the driving part, I was learning with an instructor unfortunately I got into a minor accident which made me fear and shame. I already felt like I was too old to learn driving and anxiety just ruined everything. Still this day I keep wishing gosh I wish I have the courage to get this done. It's not freaking rocket science. Bunch of crazy people drive daily on the road so why can't I ? For the job, I was working in Walmart as overnight stocker but just hated it like the pay wasn't enough and really didn't like labor jobs. I even worked at fast foods before Walmart job. So I got fired from Walmart due to covid absence. And like I even showed them reports and everything but Walmart absence policy is strict. They said u can reapply after 6 months but I just gave up. During that time I even applied for remote jobs and even in entry level office jobs but no luck due to zero education qualifications and skills. So I kept once again applying retail jobs. I was lucky enough to land jobs in retail but social anxiety and shame once again made me not want to work. I felt so frustrated and overwhelmed. Lastly got college is I simply don't know what path to choose.