I constantly feel like cissiods are criticizing me in their heads.

Maybe I'm just paranoid and can't read people very well, but that's what it feels like.

It's like they're secretly rolling their eyes thinking, "ugh, it's a transgender. Never thought I'd see one up close". Then later they talk about me with their friends.

With the way cissiods constantly belittle us online, am I really "being paranoid"? I can't trust these people, especially the old ones. My therapist would just call me crazy, because she's also cis.

I don't know, hopefully one day I can talk to people without being seen as a creature.