Transmasc but not nonbinary?

Anyone else feel transmasc but not nonbinary despite transmasc being under the enby label? I feel more like a trans man than a nonbinary person, but not quite all the way “full man” if that makes sense?

I wish I was AMAB, but even if I was, I would probably still not fit in with cis guys. I like the idea of calling myself transmasc, but I don’t like the nonbinary label.

I saw someone else on a FtM sub say how they feel like they’re a transsexual genderfluid person and that might be the closest thing I’ve heard to how I identify. They went on to explain how they know “transsexual” is a controversial term and don’t mean to offend anyone, but they identify with it because they want their biological/physical sex to be male, yet their gender is more fluid. That’s exactly how I feel. I don’t feel nonbinary, I feel male. But at the same time, I don’t feel like a cis guy, I feel more fluid.

I currently identify as genderfluid/bigender which I now realize some people consider under the enby umbrella. For my own genderfluidity, I personally do not because I feel both male and female at the same time and don’t like the implications of being not binary male and not binary female. I am both at the same time if that makes sense.

I’m just confused and wondering if anyone else feels like this?