I decided not to have children because I find motherhood to be exploitative and deceptive

I am VERY confident in my decision to not be a mother because I am 100% certain that I would be exploited. I am a dark complected black woman and I am not considered the standard of beauty which means that I am going to get less resources, less privileges and less help if I do decide to become a mother. My chances of single motherhood are quite high. I have experienced a lot of colorism and intracism in my community and because of these experiences it made me not feel very welcomed in this world & I felt like it would not be a desirable decision to become a mother. I would have to deal with my own internal issues on top of raising children and that would have been triple hard.

Most of my dating options have not been great and I do not like western dating at all. I have walked way feeling angry and frustrated after dealing with men. Every single dating prospect has seen me as nothing but a fetish or bootycall. It was so obvious that I was going to get exploited. I decided to stop dating because the market was not made for women like me.

Do I think most women have bad experiences with motherhood? Of course not. I think they are a very small minority though. And that they are usually very privileged women with pretty or money privilege and access to partners who value them. I don't have that luxury.

What I hate about motherhood is that TPTB try to convince underprivileged women like me to take a chance at romance and become a mother and deceiving me into thinking that I am going to have the same outcome as someone like Paris Hilton. I am NOT going to get the same resources, or respect. Even if I get married, my chances of being a married single mother are quite high. And the misogyny that I will face because I won't have the money to get my body fixed after all the damage that pregnancy and childbirth has caused will make it even harder. Not to mention, the other health issues that will result where I will not get quality healthcare due to my race and gender. Yet, I am supposed to be sad because I may miss out on motherhood? This is a huge slap in the face and downright disprespectful. I am supposed to mourn health issues, domestic labor, misogyny, and being overworked and underpaid? This makes me so upset. Also in my area they are literally closing down elementary and middle schools in droves. So where are my kids supposed to go to school ???

On Facebook, there were tons and tons of women admitting that their partners left them after getting pregnant. There are so many women getting exploited from motherhood that it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

I feel like motherhood is a huge popularity contest and the most privileged come out winning. I am not partaking in this competition.