This is gonna make me look bad but…

So I have mixed feelings about what I did. A week ago I thought to myself “ hey you have another email address why not make that a burner account for the time being to check out if there is anything I’m missing on Grinder” because 1 I was curious and 2 cuz why not. So I do what I need to do make the burner and log on in and find myself feeling like crap. A while back I got with this guy and after he said yeah grinder ain’t for me not right now which I understood like it isn’t the best time and I wished I had at least left a snap in case he ever wanted to reach out. Since he was a nice guy that I wouldn’t mind just hanging around with. Welp I was wrong and saw him and put two and two together. I know it makes me sounds like an ass but no reason to lie but I guess it was not to make it seem like a big thing. Alil part of me wants to reach out but that would just be digging my own grave and the rest of me just feels bad wondering what it says about me as a person. What would yall do to I guess move on.