All Alone

Probably not where this should be posted, but not sure where to post, so here i am.

For the first time in my life I am completely alone. I don't mean alone with no one around me, but I mean completely alone. My dad just died 4 hours ago, and I am officially an orphan. I have been his primary caregiver for the last 8 months, and full time 24/7 for the past 3 months, as he passed from esophageal cancer (FUCK CANCER). My wife left me 16 years ago when my mom died (and I was also her primary caregiver). Because of the situation with my dad, the woman that I was dating and I decided to put our relationship on hold (I moved 4 hours away to be with my dad). I realized that at 2am I have absolutely no one close to talk to. For the first time in my life, I have no one. Sometimes life just really sucks. . . . .