I wanna marry cause I have no friends Please listen to me.

F 20 I have no friends thanks to my introvert nature whole school life. I see my school friends putting Tories on insta and I feel so sad about it. Like how I never made any friends and all. Preparing for med school exams. Most time I'm studying but I feel so lonely.

I liked this guy he was so emotionally unavailable I would cry infront of him like how he hurts me and I care abt him but he would just stare at me. I never found me attractive he was never intrested. He wanted to stay friends cause he knew I like him. I have ghosted him now but idc now I am not going back to him. I will die crying id I go back. Marriage would not fix shit if I end with a guy like him.

Please advice me old ladies here how to heal and improve my life further. I wrote this while crying I'm really hurt and don't know who to go to.