Anxiety is at it’s worst

I’ve been laying on my couch trying to get my heart rate to go down so I can get up and go to work. I hate this feeling, and it’s been there for the last 14 years I’ve done this job, and I’m trying to make a career switch, but today is just so hard. I almost had a full on breakdown in my class last week (made it out in time to have it on the bus home), and even my principal is concerned. I just feel so trapped and I just want to believe that I won’t feel this way forever, but I don’t know anymore.