I'd love everyone's reasons for being pescatarian. Anyone else pescatarian after being vegan?

I had been vegan for 10 years. I realized that I was in an eating disorder and I was having breakdowns in the grocery store that not knowing what elaborate meal to cook next, extremely hungry with high blood sugar needing protein so desperately. I was so hungry and dizzy in whole foods and I decided to get smoked salmon and I felt the most nourished I have felt in years. Having a quick piece of fish so I don't have to cook every single freaking meal if I want nourishment is way more sustainable for me. I also hate processed foods and having processed food for almost every meal to feel full was making me extremely bloated and sick. I also can barely digest legumes anymore after shoving my face with them for protein for a decade. Now beans make me sick and I can only have small amounts of tofu before I feel nauseous. Every time I have fish I barely have to have a lot to feel full for hours. For the first time my brain fog and fatigue has gone away. It's like I can finally think clearly. Also I am staying 100% dairy free for my own personal beliefs, but I am now eating eggs from super local happy farms with free roaming chickens. It feels so good to have a complete protein that isn't processed!!

I do feel guilt eating fish again, but I believe it is the healthiest form of animal protein and wild fish would be eaten by other fish and creatures anyways!!! It's why I prefer wild caught 100%. I also don't want to consume antibiotics from farmed fish but I will it if it's the best option. Vegans will say there is no difference between eating a cow and a fish, but cows are bred into existence just to be tortured and most cows that are slaughtered go to waste. Mammals have abilities to love their children, fish do not have that ability. So that's another reason why I will never support the meat industry ripping cow families apart and fish will never feel that pain. It's just different ... though I am beyond grateful for every fish I eat.

Also I know some vegetarians are confused about why I'd eat fish before dairy, but I legitimately think the dairy industry is worse than the fish industry. Though I am not in denial that there are horrible fish productions out there, but it's not as horrific as cows would ever go through to give their milk (and yes I know that I can get diary from farms like I am getting my eggs but I don't personally want to right now.. chickens lay eggs no matter what, but cows only have milk when... they have babies! It's different ...) Anyone agree with this?

ZERO JUDGEMENT IF YOU EAT DAIRY, PESCATARIANS EAT EVERYTHING BUT OTHER MEAT I KNOW! JUST SHARING MY OWN FEELINGS AS AN EX VEGAN TO SEE WHO RELATES :))) LOVE ALL OF YOU 💖❤️🙏