I’m so terrified, is this as bad as everyone makes it out to be?

I’m married and have a good life. I’m still pretty young at 23. I always wanted kids. I even wanted them relatively young- by 25 for sure. Well, imagine my surprise when I take a test and it’s positive.

I should feel happy and excited but I’m so terrified of completely losing myself and my youth. I’m in great shape and am honestly pretty vain about my appearance. I love to drink wine and coffee so much it’s part of my personality. I like to dress “young” - crop tops, short shorts, crazy makeup, you get the idea. I’m a locally successful band that plays locally frequently and tours occasionally. I am the party girl of my friend group. I’m always out doing some sort of adventure with my husband or friends.

I already feel like I’m missing out so much being pregnant because I can’t do a lot of those things or I’m too sad/stressed. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so sad in my life as I do now realizing that the person I was will never exist again.

And everyone just tells me how awful pregnancy and parenting is and how I’ll be a slave to motherhood. I know I’m great with kids because I babysat my whole life and work in EMS now so I still deal with kiddos. I love being around them. But this one will be mine and all the responsibility will be on me. Is my life really over? Is motherhood as awful as everyone makes it out to be?