"Doomsday" OCD

I am so frustrated with myself because my OCD has been getting increasingly worse.

The state of the world and life has always worried me, I constantly feel like we are in "the end times" and that I need to be prepared for everything. Everyday I leave my house with a backpack full of items and essentials I may need if things "go wrong" I worry about not having something that I or someone may need like tissues, sanitizer, flashlight, masks, etc.

I also have to fight myself from starting a "stockpile" of goods because I know once I start prepping for whatever it is I am prepping for I will never stop. If I had the means to do it I would have a whole bunker - and hey, that's a bit much!

Some people say preparing and just having extras of food, water, etc. is a smart and practical thing but my brain just makes me take everything too too far and its' exhausting.

My dreams are always apocalyptic, I constantly am thinking of how things can go wrong when I'm out somewhere. I don't even enjoy going out most of the time because I'm so obsessed with being prepared in case the end of the world happens right then and there.

Everyday I wake up like today is the day the world will end, nuclear war will start, zombie apocalypse, terrible storm, fire - anything!

I am so very worn out by it and i am afraid it's only going to get worse :(