can a pedophile have ocd?

i’m most likely a pedophile and i just can’t accept it or i’m in denial, the reason i believe i am one is because people with pocd don’t feel as if they enjoy their thoughts and they don’t get what feels like an urge to do something to children. sure people with pocd get groinals, but they don’t get a feeling of excitement or ACTUAL arousal in other parts ( mentally for example )

people with pocd also KNOW they don’t want to do things with children, for me i’m scared that i will. i can’t say “ i know for a fact i’ll never offend! “ because i don’t believe it which is disgusting and terrifying, that i don’t know what i’ll do in the future.. that proves i’m a pedophile. people with pocd don’t have symptoms like this, this FEELS and IS too real to be pocd

however, i cannot stop thinking about all of this . it’s been this way since i was like 14-15 off and on. it’s resurfaced again and has been this way for about a month, i can’t stop thinking about it and i can’t stop worrying that i wanna do something or that i am going to do something. i’ve been avoiding children as best as i can, i don’t even play multiplayer video games ALONE anymore- i only play with friends now because if a friend is there with me, then i 100% won’t do anything bad. i want to stop this obsessive thinking but at the same time i feel like i NEED to worry about it because if i stop worrying, my guard might slip and i’ll offend.

i plan on getting a therapist that works with pedophilia, then i can tell whether or not i truly am a pedophile. i don’t believe i should go to a ocd specialist because there’s a HIGH CHANCE i’m a real pedophile and i don’t want to be misdiagnosed. i also don’t have an ocd diagnosis anyway. i also plan on getting chemically castrated sometime in the future, if it turns out i am a true pedophile like i think i am. might do it anyway regardless of ocd or not, just in case