CONFESSION
Maine apni JEE preparation 11th class se start ki thi aur ek local coaching join kiya. Lekin maine padhai par zyada dhyan nahi diya, aur 85 students ke beech mujhe kuch samajh bhi nahi aata tha. Har test mein meri rank last aati thi. 11th ke end tak maine khud ko yeh samjhaya ki coaching hi kharab hai, aur socha ki agar PW join kar lunga toh sab sahi ho jayega. Lekin sach toh yeh tha ki main apne aap se jhoot bol raha tha.
Mummy-papa ko kaafi convince karne ke baad maine PW join kar liya. Lekin puri 12th class mein maine sirf time waste kiya—games, Instagram aur idhar-udhar. Jab January attempt pass aane laga, tab maine parents ko bola ki mujhe drop lena padega kyunki tayyari bilkul nahi thi. Phir bhi maine exam diya, aur sirf 33 percentile score kiya. Maine parents ko apna result nahi bataya, lekin unhone mere friend se puch liya aur sach samajh gaya.
Phir maine 12th ke board exams diye bina kisi preparation ke. Jab boards khatam hue, toh main soch raha tha ki kisi local engineering college mein admission le loon ya kisi aur field ki preparation karoon—shayad finance, kyunki sach kahun toh mujhe science mein kabhi interest tha hi nahi. Tab mere mama ne mujhe drop lene ke liye convince kiya. Woh IIT BHU se graduate hain aur mujhe hamesha lagta hai ki unki ek "IIT personality" hai. Aaj woh US mein hain aur bahut achha kama rahe hain.
Maine drop lene ka decision liya aur Aakash join kiya. Iss baar maine genuinely padhai shuru ki. Beech-beech mein thoda time waste hota raha, lekin maine consistently mehnat ki. Mera 12th ka result aaya aur maine sirf 67% score kiya (mujhe laga tha fail ho jaunga), lekin fir bhi maine JEE ki preparation continue rakhi. Pehle JEE Mains ke mock tests mein 150 tak score aata tha, lekin dheere-dheere marks girte gaye. January attempt ke pehle last mock test mein sirf 84 marks aaye. Aur last ek mahine mein toh maine utna padha bhi nahi jitna chahiye tha.
JEE Mains 2025 Session 1 ke exam mein sirf 136 marks ka paper attempt kiya aur kaafi questions tukke se maare. Aaj mummy se jhagda ho gaya—unhone kaha "Bade sapne mat dekha kar", aur honestly woh galat bhi nahi hain. Lekin sunke bahut bura laga.
Aaj mujhe lag raha hai ki main ek complete failure hoon. Ab bas mujhe bahut hard work karna hai, ek achhe college mein jaana hai, aur phir kabhi wapas ghar nahi aana—kyunki mujhe lagta hai ki wo ek aise bete ko deserve nahi karte jo life mein kuch nahi kar paya.
kaafi lamba ho gya h lekin mera liye ye confess karna jaruri tha...