I give up bro....
Hii I am 21M and I am in the final year of my engineering degree I am in a decent enough college like ppl say it comes after most of the IITs and is mostly equivalent top NITs (atleast what ppl say) and in the final year I am realizing this too placements are going good atleast for most of the ppl but I am still unplaced and I am wondering what to do if I remain unplaced after graduation?
How abt taking my own life?
Wait wait before you guys call me crazy or sucidal or something just hear me out. I was living my life peacefully and honestly was happy in my life ( not that I am not happy now) but kisi ne toh bola ki have a goal in your life have a purpose and somehow I thought about it decided my purpose of life should be earning money a lot of money I know sounds silly ryt but I don't have any other goals I tried to think about it but life mai kch chahiye hi nhi mujhe but for now lets continue so ab whats the way how to earn money someone suggested IITians bahut paisa kamate hain IIT jao waha se acchi job lo acche paise kamaoge and I was like ok works for me. So I aimed for IIT went to kota studied hard in 11th but phir 12th mai covid aa gaya back to home got into a relationship and ruined my chance of getting into IIT but somehow 1-1.5 months padh ke I cracked a few exams and got into a decent clg but still CSE nhi mili. Now whats next ppl said do finance get into an HFT or any good Finance company usmai bahut paisa hai I was like ok lets try I did a finance minor tried to get an intership in finance companies but I failed to get one so I decided lets get into a good MBA clg waha se finance major karunga and then I will get into a finance firm and paise kamaunga tried to prepare for CAT but again wasn't able to manage clg and CAT together and failed there too.....Now I am like ek job le leta hoon koi bhi 2 saal ka experience leke MBA karunga then finance firm mai ghus jaunga and guess what ab mujhe job bhi nhi mil rahi funny ryt.
Now you guys might think ki iska yeh mtlb todi hai ki su*ide kr loge ya something but the point is kyu nhi? Bro I am just a guy a failed guy jiska life mai koi goal nhi hai aur hai bhi toh achieve nhi kr pa raha hai and honestly main thak gyaa hoon try kr kr ke I give up bhai and problem kya hai I led a good life and ab aur nhi jeena so why not just quit it? Haan parents pe kya beetegi unka support kon karega etc etc uske paas aur bhi bacche and and ig mere parents ke paas itna paisa toh hai hi ki retire krne ke baad wo apni baaki ki zindagi aaram se kaat lenge rahi baat abhi toh takleef hogi uski aaa can't help with that yrr but ig 3-4 saal mai they will be fine.
And kya karu jee ke logo pe bojh banne ke alawa kch nhi karunga a guy with no dreams no ambitions just a guy living his life and contributing nothing to the society koi point nhi hai aise jee ke aur ab mera mann bhi nhi hai aur struggle krne ka toh give up krte hain na yrr problem kya hai?
tl;dr Nothing much just wondering whats the point of living without having any goals or any hope of succeding in life and honestly I have given up so who cares.