I'm 530 days clean off fent

I just wanted to tell someone that. I feel like I can help someone with my testimony.

I was a junkie for 12 years out of the 32 years of life I had before I got clean. I was an alcoholic for 6 of those 12 years. I've faced the demon that is addiction time and time again.

I feel like I've got a system now. I smoke my weed when I get cravings, and I go to atleast 4 meetings per week.

My bottom was horrible. One day I had just smoked 24 blues and drank half a handle of Jack Daniel's, I received a call from my ex who I was still very in love with, she was worried I was using again, I lied and said I hadn't used, and took myself to a detox; and when they were full I went and took two vivitrol and immediately threw myself into precipitated withdrawal. That was the worst pain I've ever felt. It felt like my stomach was being turned inside out and I couldn't stop shitting and throwing up. For 12 hours until all of the drugs got out of my system.

I survived, for what I dont know. But I've dedicated my clean time to my daughter, who was aborted in february of 2023. I missed the chance to be a father and it haunts me. I wanted to get sober for her, I just didn't do it in time. I told her I was going to get through it and still, it didn't matter because I was late for getting clean.

I've been clean since August of 2023, and am willing to share my experience with you all.