I’ve gained back all the weight I lost

Cmon crucify me. I know this community loves to do so. I lost 26 kgs past year and gained back 22kgs. I did learn good eating habits and lifestyle like you all talk about. But alcohol is my kryptonite. And I can’t sleep with just booze in my body and no food. I lost it by quitting alcohol. I don’t know how to do that again. All I know is I can’t continue being fat unhealthy living with those deep heaving breaths all the time

26 122kg 6ft

Well I didn’t think I needed more words to describe my situation but this community with all your scales. I don’t mind it. Here’s my rant. I understand cico very well. That’s what helped me lose weight in the first place. 5 months of that helped me lose 26kgs. Thing is I don’t even have the fire or willpower in me to do that again. Let’s be frank, it sucked. But at the time I was in the frame of mind that i could’ve pushed through anything. Those months I was not only disciplined but fired up to change my life. Now I know losing weight can’t change my life. Well it can change my life but it cannot take away my problems in the way I thought it could last year. What do I do now?