10 months and it's still getting harder
I'm aware of things to do to move on such as NC, doing things i like, setting new goals, accepting reality, and etc for the past few months. It's just getting harder. Her haunting me in my dreams, me lowkey being hopeful, and every inch of this city just doesnt help because we had memories everywhere. We had a 6 yrs relationship and broke up last year around april. She's seeing someone new after 7 months of NC. No cheating happened during the relationship and I was the dumper. Some things just didn't work out or couldve been worked out if life situations were better. Context: me, a bread winner drained with life problems lost feelings and passion for everything and stuck around with my ex regardless if i feel or not because im a genuine believer of commitment regardless if feelings.
I sent her a text message on dec, saying that i hope she's doing okay and getting some happiness back. I know about her situation tho, just really wanted to see her reply to me again even if its just from a text. Thats the only time i reached out during NC. I want to say what can I do to make her come back, that I've lost more during the days she's gone, that i miss her and our cats.. but i know better to not fk around with her and her fam specially when she's seeing someone new already. I'm trying my best to not break any rules that can help me move on. I've been trying to accept reality for the past months. I've been overloading myself with things to do to forget about her. It's getting harder as time goes on. I remember not being able to move on from a puppy love during highschool days. Took me around 3-4yrs to finally move on.
I hope everyone here is managing somehow.