I’m so upset that I’m recovered because I miss being able to eat as much as I want

I’m short and sedentary so my TDEE is on the floor but because my period is back I basically have to halve the amount of calories I was eating in recovery

I’m so fucking hungry but now I have no excuses to honor it and I’m too afraid to exercise for fear that it’ll trigger my cycles to stop again, so I’m forced to eat sedentary calories for a dwarf

I tried to get in touch with my dietician but I’m out of the country and the only way to do a virtual visit would be to weigh myself and send her that number which I’m 1. Too scared to do and 2. No idea where I’d find a scale anyways . I’m also lying out of my ass trying to hide the fact I’m out of the country so she will even see me.