Tired and alone

I’m an unpaid, long term caregiver for my mom who has Alzheimer’s. By the time this is over I’ll have nothing left. I won’t have any SS when I’m old. I won’t have my health because I have no healthcare or dental care. I won’t have a career that will allow for job opportunities. I won’t have a home or probably even the ability to rent since I won’t have rental history for a long period. Please don’t advise me that I can get paid through my Medicare, I can’t. My parents have too much in assets to qualify, but not enough to pay a caregiver. Please don’t advise me that I can “just leave”, I can’t do that either without just being homeless. I’m 40 and unmarried, no hope of ever having a relationship with anyone. My current “retirement plan” is accessing non-medical end of life assistance in a foreign country that allows it. I have a family full of very well off people who will never help, and every time they tell me how “great” I am it makes me so…so…angry. I just want this life to be over. That’s all, thanks for letting me vent.