I don’t know if I should visit my grandmother before she dies.

I’m 19f.

My father’s mother, as news got back to us, has cancer. It won’t be long for her. I’m still processing how I feel. My grandmother hasn’t been the best person ever, over the years I’m not too sure of the details but she slowly drifted out of my life, and only reached out through Facebook on my birthday and commenting on my posts every once in a while.

I haven’t seen or received a phone call from her in over 10 (or so) years.

Part of me feels like I should see her before she goes, but the other part of me thinks that, I’d be going for the moral part of me that believes family is super important, that I wouldn’t be doing anything to help me.

I can’t really talk to anyone about it because it feels too difficult to explain, so instead I turn to reddit.

Help?

Edit: I feel like this is important to note, my Grandmother didn’t reach out, asking to see us, or even tell us she had cancer. We found out from my Uncle, who called us, he’s in a similar amount of contact with her.

Also my Father doesn’t feel the need to visit her. He says that chapter of his life closed a long time ago, but he’d take me if I wanted to. (I can drive myself but my cars shotty and it’s prolly not smart to take it long distance)